(Bilgisayarimin derinliklerinde buldum. Ne zaman yazdigimi falan hic bilmiyorum. Sonlara dogru konudan baya sapmisim sori.)
Most people are excited about the future. They want to grow up, graduate, maybe get married and have a few kids, even a house with the picket fences and all that crap. And I’m not gonna lie; I’m one of those people. I can’t wait until graduation. I keep telling myself that my life is over-monotonous and that it’s only because I’m preparing for the future etc etc. But what about the future? Isn’t the future going to be monotonous as well? After all, aren’t we all looking for the perfect job and the perfect house? Well… If we are, then the future isn’t going to get rid of the monotonousness of our lives. I am very aware of all this, yet I’m still excited about graduation. Is everything really going to change? I personally don’t think so. I guess at this point, I’m hoping for the best but expecting the worse. On the other hand, here I am writing about the future or whatever, when I’m supposed to be studying for my Biology final. To be honest, I don’t even know why I’m writing this at 1 AM when I’m supposed to wake up in 5 hours. I guess, with all the graduation talk around me, I’ve been thinking about it a lot. About things like why it matters so much and what’s really ahead of us, other than the “woohoo college parties alcohol freedom yayy” crap. Unlike most people, I know what I want in life. I mean I actually have a plan. I want to go to college, become a doctor, get married, buy a house, travel before having kids, (maybe join Doctors Without Borders?), have kids and there you have it. Oh and find the cure for Alzheimer’s obviously. So with that future planned ahead of me, I’m still looking forward to graduation. This brings me to the conclusion that people get bored of what they have. So maybe, just maybe… In the end, all we’re looking for is some change, and the ability to take control and be independent. And that’s why we get excited about things like graduation when we know that all we have ahead of us is college, or a job, which we probably will have until the rest our lives. They’re simply changes in our lives that all mean “moving forward”. They all show that we are making decisions and taking control. So where does all this leave us? I think the reason for all this looking forward to the future thing is about power. People have the need to feel powerful, thus they want to feel like they are controlling their own lives and making their own decisions, thus looking forward to the future. I don’t even know the point of this essay-ish thing but it helped me get it out of my system. I was planning on writing about graduation in the conventional sense but maybe another time.